Hello all!
I send you greetings from the hot state of California. It's July already. Can you believe it? Anyway, here's what's been going on lately. I didn't know this but California requires that you register your car here 20 days after you move here....whoops.....I kinda dropped the ball on that one. So I've been working feverishly to do just that and in order to register here you have to pass a smog test.....and go figure, my car doesn't pass. So I take it into the shop to see what needs to be fixed now and was shocked to see that it would cost an arm and a leg to fix these certain things. Lame!!! So I'm scratching my head and wondering what in the world to do now since I have such a limited budget until I get a job. Oy.
Well, besides that, I've begun the painstaking process of finding a job in Redding for when I move down there. Not so easy to check in on applications when you live two hours away. And then there's the priority of housing as well. LOL Sounds like I'm in quite the predicament but luckily there's still time so I will continue to go all out to search for these things.....any chance you could be praying for a miracle? That's always a relief.
Anyway, so enough about the bad news. I got to go strawberry picking for the first time a couple of weeks ago and then got to go cherry picking for the first time two nights ago! Hooray for firsts!
We had a painting day and I enjoyed it very much but I hate one thing, I'm such a perfectionist that when I try to paint the beautiful pictures that are in my head, I get so frustrated because it never comes out the way I want it to. Oh well, I guess there's always room for growth right? :D And as they say, practice makes perfect.
Honestly, I can't really think of anything else to update you on. I can tell you this, God is good all the time and He is my Provider. He loves you so much, it truly is a mind-blowing miracle of what Jesus did for us. I find myself being reminded of what Jesus did lately. He still continues to do a deep work on my heart and I'm so grateful that He hasn't given up on me yet. I'm not perfect by any means but I know that His love will cover me and will heal me and take me so much deeper. I want to be right smack in the center of His will for I know that it's the best place for me. I find rest in Him, I find true peace, I find true love. I'm hoping that any and all who are reading this could have a revelation of how much God loves you. Don't let your broken heart, anger, bitterness, and hatred keep you from the amazing destiny God has for you. Just put your trust in Him and I can assure you that everything's going to be ok. It may not be easy, but He won't abandon you either.
Anyway, there's my advice for the day. I love you all very much and miss you all tremendously! May God shower His love on you today and everyday!
God bless,
~Jess~
Monday, July 25, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Learning to Wait
Hello all!
I hope I find you all well on this beautiful summer day. I can't believe it's already June! My goodness, this year has flown by.
Good news, I've been accepted to BSSM for this fall and my tuition is totally paid for! Praise God! I'm totally excited to see what God will do this fall. As of right now, nothing too new is happening. Just staying busy with helping this amazing family.
I tried out rafting for the first time the other day. It was my very first time attempting to get into a wetsuit which epically failed so I had to wear a bigger one that kinda choked my neck and caused me to gag for a while until I got used to it. I never knew I could feel claustrophobic in my skin while attempting to wear a wet suit. Weird. But hey rafting was fun. Besides being a little chilly when the sun disappeared behind the clouds and the wind picking up. It was only a Class 1 apparently and now I'm itching to try a higher class. It was good for a beginner like me to learn the ropes of paddling in a weird, big, tube-like raft. LOL I had fun though.
Another random note, I've picked up knitting since living here. It's funner than I thought! I've been making scarves like crazy (since that's the only thing I know how to make so far lol). If you want one, let me know! te he!
Lately, I've had this huge inspiration to do art. I've had so many ideas rolling around in my head. Now to just figure out how to get them on paper. I've picked up a love for anime since going to Colorado and have been attempting to draw anime-like people. I've been hanging around some amazing artists lately that have been inspiring me. And I've been painting lately. Which I've been longing to do so much recently. I do post my art on a website if you'd like to check it out:
http://tinkerbell594.deviantart.com/
Also, living at the Travis house gives me the chance to play a real piano. I'm so in love with the piano they have here that I never want to go back to a keyboard. I'm slowly but surely learning sheet music and how to play it. I'm also learning all my favorite theme songs! It's so exciting and I'm so grateful that God has placed amazing people in my life to help me achieve my dream of learning how to play piano. It's been fun.
Is it weird to say that I feel like God's going to grant some really big dreams of mine soon? I do, it's exciting. I can't wait to see what He's going to do next!
So yesterday, I spent the day going through all my cards and letters that I've saved up over the years and am totally amazed. I was such a different person back then....it's weird. At the same time, it's fun to relive my childhood memories. I think I can honestly say that I had a great childhood. Now however, it has me really missing a lot of people. Going through letters they sent me, really has me missing my family and friends so much. So guys, I miss you! All of you! :D
I realize lately that God has totally changed my heart for the idea of missions. I used to hate the thought of going and doing ministry because I was so afraid. Now however, I'm so excited to go. I want to go everywhere. And see all kinds of different people and cultures. I want to go to orphanages and love on children. I want to run to the brokenhearted and just hold them and say it's going to be ok. I want to see so many people's lives transformed by the love of Jesus. It's real, so real.
Anyway, this is just me. Ranting about my dreams and hopes for the future. Somehow, I feel like it will happen. And I can't wait! So now is just a time to sit and focus on Him and remain patient for the next step. I desire so strongly to meet my one and only and finally get married. I notice so many of my friends and family that are my age and even younger are married, engaged, or at least dating. And that's so amazing! I'm so happy for them! At the same time, it makes me so impatient. LOL Pray for patience for me, K? ha ha.
So there ya have it folks. A kinda random little update on my life. I love you all and miss you tons! And don't forget that God loves you tons too!
Love, peace, and chicken grease,
Jess
I hope I find you all well on this beautiful summer day. I can't believe it's already June! My goodness, this year has flown by.
Good news, I've been accepted to BSSM for this fall and my tuition is totally paid for! Praise God! I'm totally excited to see what God will do this fall. As of right now, nothing too new is happening. Just staying busy with helping this amazing family.
I tried out rafting for the first time the other day. It was my very first time attempting to get into a wetsuit which epically failed so I had to wear a bigger one that kinda choked my neck and caused me to gag for a while until I got used to it. I never knew I could feel claustrophobic in my skin while attempting to wear a wet suit. Weird. But hey rafting was fun. Besides being a little chilly when the sun disappeared behind the clouds and the wind picking up. It was only a Class 1 apparently and now I'm itching to try a higher class. It was good for a beginner like me to learn the ropes of paddling in a weird, big, tube-like raft. LOL I had fun though.
Another random note, I've picked up knitting since living here. It's funner than I thought! I've been making scarves like crazy (since that's the only thing I know how to make so far lol). If you want one, let me know! te he!
Lately, I've had this huge inspiration to do art. I've had so many ideas rolling around in my head. Now to just figure out how to get them on paper. I've picked up a love for anime since going to Colorado and have been attempting to draw anime-like people. I've been hanging around some amazing artists lately that have been inspiring me. And I've been painting lately. Which I've been longing to do so much recently. I do post my art on a website if you'd like to check it out:
http://tinkerbell594.deviantart.com/
Also, living at the Travis house gives me the chance to play a real piano. I'm so in love with the piano they have here that I never want to go back to a keyboard. I'm slowly but surely learning sheet music and how to play it. I'm also learning all my favorite theme songs! It's so exciting and I'm so grateful that God has placed amazing people in my life to help me achieve my dream of learning how to play piano. It's been fun.
Is it weird to say that I feel like God's going to grant some really big dreams of mine soon? I do, it's exciting. I can't wait to see what He's going to do next!
So yesterday, I spent the day going through all my cards and letters that I've saved up over the years and am totally amazed. I was such a different person back then....it's weird. At the same time, it's fun to relive my childhood memories. I think I can honestly say that I had a great childhood. Now however, it has me really missing a lot of people. Going through letters they sent me, really has me missing my family and friends so much. So guys, I miss you! All of you! :D
I realize lately that God has totally changed my heart for the idea of missions. I used to hate the thought of going and doing ministry because I was so afraid. Now however, I'm so excited to go. I want to go everywhere. And see all kinds of different people and cultures. I want to go to orphanages and love on children. I want to run to the brokenhearted and just hold them and say it's going to be ok. I want to see so many people's lives transformed by the love of Jesus. It's real, so real.
Anyway, this is just me. Ranting about my dreams and hopes for the future. Somehow, I feel like it will happen. And I can't wait! So now is just a time to sit and focus on Him and remain patient for the next step. I desire so strongly to meet my one and only and finally get married. I notice so many of my friends and family that are my age and even younger are married, engaged, or at least dating. And that's so amazing! I'm so happy for them! At the same time, it makes me so impatient. LOL Pray for patience for me, K? ha ha.
So there ya have it folks. A kinda random little update on my life. I love you all and miss you tons! And don't forget that God loves you tons too!
Love, peace, and chicken grease,
Jess
Friday, January 28, 2011
A New Area To Explore!
Hello world!
It's me again! I do exist still and haven't fallen off the face of the Earth. Instead of this being a blog, it's more of a time for me to recollect my thoughts and recall all the things that God has done in my life for the past few months....since I can't keep up with a weekly blog! LOL
So here's an update:
I'm no longer attending BSSM for this year. Some of you know that I did have to leave the school for a lack of finances which of course, was totally my fault. Honestly, I was going off of faith and I totally believed that God would provide it all like He promises. I was a fool though to sit back and wait for God to move when I should've put in some effort. Oh well. We learn from our mistakes, right? So this all went down in the end of October and it left me hurt and confused. I was really excited about the school and really looking forward to an amazing year there, but little did I know, God had other plans. :D
So, remember that family I mentioned in a previous post that took me to the Bahamas with them? Well, I got to go visit them a few more times throughout the month of November and was asked to go up for a couple of weeks (this is in Etna, by the way, which is two hours north of Redding and still in California) and work off my debt from the Bahama's trip. Of course, during the month of November, I really started to look for full-time jobs while I waited for next year and trying again at BSSM. So in the mean time, I did go up and help them. I became Serena's "personal assistant" so to speak and helped her with organizing and paperwork since they just moved to a new house and have an amazing ministry to run. It was so much fun at the same time! I loved being able to come up and stay at their house in a beautiful area and help them out as they fed me (yay for feeding a poor college student! Woot!) and brought me joy. They are such a fun family and I was really bummed to have to go back to Redding.
So when I had to go back, I kept praying to God and asking if there was some way to move up to Etna and work up there somehow.....and save up for BSSM and move back down to Redding in the fall. But I couldn't think of a way to make it work so I just focused on job searching and trying to remain content in this time. And here is where the real lesson is learned: God is always mentioning in the Bible to be content always with everything. So I surrendered the idea of Etna and just really focused on the positives of Redding, like Bethel Church! After a few days, I was ok with this fact that I would get a job, work like crazy, and still be able to attend Bethel. When all of a sudden, I get a phone call and Serena has a proposition for me. She wanted me to move up to Etna, live with them, and work for them all year and they would pay for my whole tuition for school next year.......talk about a tear jerker! I was so overwhelmed with what God was doing and so thrilled that this would work out AND I wouldn't have to worry about leaving school next year. So of course, I took that opportunity! And here I am. Living in their house up in Etna and helping them out with their ministry as they feed and shelter me. Oh and if you are interested in their ministry, here are a few websites:
www.serenatravis.com
www.draketravis.com
http://www.gmcnx.org/
The last website is for their ministry and explains what they do!
I'm still thanking God to this day on how He worked everything out! So my suggestion: If you aren't happy with where you are at, surrender it to God and try to think of the positives and He'll come through for you in ALL situations! He's so amazing like that and He will never let you down. Just look at my life and see where He brought me! And it's funny because I kept getting prophetic words saying "This is going to be the most amazing year for you." And I can see that now!
Also, I did get the opportunity to go home for Christmas thanks to another amazing blessing from God! It was sooooooo nice to go and see friends and family in my home state of Minnesota! And if I didn't see any of you that are reading this and are offended, I'm sorry. It really was a short time that I was home and I was kept busy with family mostly! But I'm still happy I got to go home!
So now it looks like I'm living in Etna until about August and then moving back down to Redding to, once again, attend BSSM (which I'm super excited for). So feel free to call, email, or text (while in Minnesota I got a new phone and can text now! Hallelujah!), or even snail mail (just ask for the address) me. I miss you all and love you all dearly! And never forget, you are very much loved by God, and by me.
Love Always,
Jess
It's me again! I do exist still and haven't fallen off the face of the Earth. Instead of this being a blog, it's more of a time for me to recollect my thoughts and recall all the things that God has done in my life for the past few months....since I can't keep up with a weekly blog! LOL
So here's an update:
I'm no longer attending BSSM for this year. Some of you know that I did have to leave the school for a lack of finances which of course, was totally my fault. Honestly, I was going off of faith and I totally believed that God would provide it all like He promises. I was a fool though to sit back and wait for God to move when I should've put in some effort. Oh well. We learn from our mistakes, right? So this all went down in the end of October and it left me hurt and confused. I was really excited about the school and really looking forward to an amazing year there, but little did I know, God had other plans. :D
So, remember that family I mentioned in a previous post that took me to the Bahamas with them? Well, I got to go visit them a few more times throughout the month of November and was asked to go up for a couple of weeks (this is in Etna, by the way, which is two hours north of Redding and still in California) and work off my debt from the Bahama's trip. Of course, during the month of November, I really started to look for full-time jobs while I waited for next year and trying again at BSSM. So in the mean time, I did go up and help them. I became Serena's "personal assistant" so to speak and helped her with organizing and paperwork since they just moved to a new house and have an amazing ministry to run. It was so much fun at the same time! I loved being able to come up and stay at their house in a beautiful area and help them out as they fed me (yay for feeding a poor college student! Woot!) and brought me joy. They are such a fun family and I was really bummed to have to go back to Redding.
So when I had to go back, I kept praying to God and asking if there was some way to move up to Etna and work up there somehow.....and save up for BSSM and move back down to Redding in the fall. But I couldn't think of a way to make it work so I just focused on job searching and trying to remain content in this time. And here is where the real lesson is learned: God is always mentioning in the Bible to be content always with everything. So I surrendered the idea of Etna and just really focused on the positives of Redding, like Bethel Church! After a few days, I was ok with this fact that I would get a job, work like crazy, and still be able to attend Bethel. When all of a sudden, I get a phone call and Serena has a proposition for me. She wanted me to move up to Etna, live with them, and work for them all year and they would pay for my whole tuition for school next year.......talk about a tear jerker! I was so overwhelmed with what God was doing and so thrilled that this would work out AND I wouldn't have to worry about leaving school next year. So of course, I took that opportunity! And here I am. Living in their house up in Etna and helping them out with their ministry as they feed and shelter me. Oh and if you are interested in their ministry, here are a few websites:
www.serenatravis.com
www.draketravis.com
http://www.gmcnx.org/
The last website is for their ministry and explains what they do!
I'm still thanking God to this day on how He worked everything out! So my suggestion: If you aren't happy with where you are at, surrender it to God and try to think of the positives and He'll come through for you in ALL situations! He's so amazing like that and He will never let you down. Just look at my life and see where He brought me! And it's funny because I kept getting prophetic words saying "This is going to be the most amazing year for you." And I can see that now!
Also, I did get the opportunity to go home for Christmas thanks to another amazing blessing from God! It was sooooooo nice to go and see friends and family in my home state of Minnesota! And if I didn't see any of you that are reading this and are offended, I'm sorry. It really was a short time that I was home and I was kept busy with family mostly! But I'm still happy I got to go home!
So now it looks like I'm living in Etna until about August and then moving back down to Redding to, once again, attend BSSM (which I'm super excited for). So feel free to call, email, or text (while in Minnesota I got a new phone and can text now! Hallelujah!), or even snail mail (just ask for the address) me. I miss you all and love you all dearly! And never forget, you are very much loved by God, and by me.
Love Always,
Jess
Thursday, October 7, 2010
The Perfect Season
So I realize I haven't updated this in forever! Again, my dearest apologies to anyone who is actually keeping up with these!
Right now, if you weren't aware, I am in Redding, California (have moved over here the beginning of September) and have been attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry as a 1st Year student. Even though it was hard to say good-bye to my job at the theater, many friends that I hope to visit soon, the cool weather of Humboldt County, and the ocean, I must admit I am really enjoying myself here. Before even coming to this school, I have been filled with an anticipation that something great and amazing is going to happen for me. Still not sure what that looks like, but excited to see what happens! You're probably wondering why I'm going to a similiar school as the one I attended last year right? Well, let me tell you there are some similarities but many more differences. Last year was really a time of preparation for me in the fact that we had an intimate setting to be discipled and a perfect atmosphere to be encouraged to walk out in healing towards the heart issues. Last year was really a transformational year for me because God broke through a lot of hurt I was carrying in my life and really encouraged me with my future. Even though I feel I am far from ready for ministry, God is helping me one step at a time to grow closer to Him and to be able to do as He tells me!
When I reflect on last year, I realize that I had a lot of fear and bitterness that I've been holding on to ever since I left home in 2007. And for everyone back home in Minnesota, you have no idea how much I miss you all and I can't wait to see all of your beautiful faces again. You have supported me when I was in my crazy teenage years (some even longer) and have pushed me onward to my destiny and I just want to thank you all for your prayers, support, and love. I probably wouldn't be the person I am because of 1. God and 2. YOU. So hopefully, I will be able to somehow afford a ticket to Minnesota for Christmas....it's been too long since I've been away from my beloved state and my home!
So anyway, after going through the healing and transformation process, I felt I was ready to move on to the bigger school. (Originally I aimed to go to this school in the first place, but God had other plans and I am so thankful he sent me to BSSD first for breakthrough in the hard places of my life.) So now, here I am, in a class of 900 or so. Even though this school is MASSIVE, I still love it because everything is greater here (the teaching, the anointing, the covering, the ministry). So many amazing things are going on here and I can't even begin to tell you all the crazy stuff God has done! So many testimonies!
Even though this school isn't accredited (well, it sorta is for Simspon University), I feel like this is a perfect place for me. If you know me, I was never the type to be interested in college (to get an acutal degree). To me, all I wanted was more of God and to learn more about Him and I was going to do whatever necessary to chase Him! Even though I may have started chasing Him in the wrong places (some of you know what I'm talking about), He still got me here to the perfect school for me. Now my heart is definitely to pursue God always but even more, I find myself having a heart towards all people of this world. I definitely get excited when I think about the great Commision (I used to dread it-anything to deal with seeking out the lost or praying for strangers or what not). Now I'm super excited to go all over the world, tell testimonies of Jesus, and pray for miracles for many. And since this is a supernatural school, I am getting acquainted with the tools I need to go to the lost world and say "Here world, experience the love of Jesus!" You may say I'm crazy but at this point, I don't care! I love God so much and nothing can change that (not even man's opinion anymore like it used to). My heart is for the lost and I've been promised that I will do more than even Jesus Himself (like having signs, wonders, and miracles follow me and not by my power or will, but by the love relationship I have with God). Everything stems out of love and the intimacy I have with God (please do not take this as me controlling power or whatever, I'm saying all that I do comes out of love for Jesus!). I hope you all can understand this....if not, ask God about it! haha!
So besides that, I've been having some amazing people speak into my life like Bill Johnson, Kris Valloton, (I highly recommend any books they wrote) and many more. Sounds like we may have a chance to see John Paul Jackson or Bob Jones later this year! Definitely exciting!
All that to say that life is good my way, God is always good and amazing, Redding is finally cooling down, and that I'm also asking for support still in prayer and finances. Thanks to all who have kept me in their prayers! And thanks to all who have provided into my life! Please continue to pray for financial miracles (or donate if you like!!!) for me, since I do need to pay a little bit off of this school before I can graduate! And I may be able to go on a missions trip in March (still unsure which one it will be)!! Thanks a bunch everyone and I love you all like crazy!
If you'd like to email me:
jessica.royer07@gmail.com
God Bless!
*Jess*
Right now, if you weren't aware, I am in Redding, California (have moved over here the beginning of September) and have been attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry as a 1st Year student. Even though it was hard to say good-bye to my job at the theater, many friends that I hope to visit soon, the cool weather of Humboldt County, and the ocean, I must admit I am really enjoying myself here. Before even coming to this school, I have been filled with an anticipation that something great and amazing is going to happen for me. Still not sure what that looks like, but excited to see what happens! You're probably wondering why I'm going to a similiar school as the one I attended last year right? Well, let me tell you there are some similarities but many more differences. Last year was really a time of preparation for me in the fact that we had an intimate setting to be discipled and a perfect atmosphere to be encouraged to walk out in healing towards the heart issues. Last year was really a transformational year for me because God broke through a lot of hurt I was carrying in my life and really encouraged me with my future. Even though I feel I am far from ready for ministry, God is helping me one step at a time to grow closer to Him and to be able to do as He tells me!
When I reflect on last year, I realize that I had a lot of fear and bitterness that I've been holding on to ever since I left home in 2007. And for everyone back home in Minnesota, you have no idea how much I miss you all and I can't wait to see all of your beautiful faces again. You have supported me when I was in my crazy teenage years (some even longer) and have pushed me onward to my destiny and I just want to thank you all for your prayers, support, and love. I probably wouldn't be the person I am because of 1. God and 2. YOU. So hopefully, I will be able to somehow afford a ticket to Minnesota for Christmas....it's been too long since I've been away from my beloved state and my home!
So anyway, after going through the healing and transformation process, I felt I was ready to move on to the bigger school. (Originally I aimed to go to this school in the first place, but God had other plans and I am so thankful he sent me to BSSD first for breakthrough in the hard places of my life.) So now, here I am, in a class of 900 or so. Even though this school is MASSIVE, I still love it because everything is greater here (the teaching, the anointing, the covering, the ministry). So many amazing things are going on here and I can't even begin to tell you all the crazy stuff God has done! So many testimonies!
Even though this school isn't accredited (well, it sorta is for Simspon University), I feel like this is a perfect place for me. If you know me, I was never the type to be interested in college (to get an acutal degree). To me, all I wanted was more of God and to learn more about Him and I was going to do whatever necessary to chase Him! Even though I may have started chasing Him in the wrong places (some of you know what I'm talking about), He still got me here to the perfect school for me. Now my heart is definitely to pursue God always but even more, I find myself having a heart towards all people of this world. I definitely get excited when I think about the great Commision (I used to dread it-anything to deal with seeking out the lost or praying for strangers or what not). Now I'm super excited to go all over the world, tell testimonies of Jesus, and pray for miracles for many. And since this is a supernatural school, I am getting acquainted with the tools I need to go to the lost world and say "Here world, experience the love of Jesus!" You may say I'm crazy but at this point, I don't care! I love God so much and nothing can change that (not even man's opinion anymore like it used to). My heart is for the lost and I've been promised that I will do more than even Jesus Himself (like having signs, wonders, and miracles follow me and not by my power or will, but by the love relationship I have with God). Everything stems out of love and the intimacy I have with God (please do not take this as me controlling power or whatever, I'm saying all that I do comes out of love for Jesus!). I hope you all can understand this....if not, ask God about it! haha!
So besides that, I've been having some amazing people speak into my life like Bill Johnson, Kris Valloton, (I highly recommend any books they wrote) and many more. Sounds like we may have a chance to see John Paul Jackson or Bob Jones later this year! Definitely exciting!
All that to say that life is good my way, God is always good and amazing, Redding is finally cooling down, and that I'm also asking for support still in prayer and finances. Thanks to all who have kept me in their prayers! And thanks to all who have provided into my life! Please continue to pray for financial miracles (or donate if you like!!!) for me, since I do need to pay a little bit off of this school before I can graduate! And I may be able to go on a missions trip in March (still unsure which one it will be)!! Thanks a bunch everyone and I love you all like crazy!
If you'd like to email me:
jessica.royer07@gmail.com
God Bless!
*Jess*
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Crossroads of Decision
Hello all again!
It has been way too long since I've posted a blog. I realize this and I'm sorry.
To give a quick update since my Bahamas trip:
I had the most amazing opportunity to jump in with my roommates family and travel with them to Exuma and Nasau Bahamas for a missions trip. I know this family well because I've stayed with them for Thanksgiving and have visited them a few times throughout this year: AN AMAZING FAMILY AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! But anyway, Brooke and I got to spend 2 weeks out of the 3 weeks they were there helping them minister to the Bahamians. It was my first time I've been out of the country and the first time to use my passport. I must admit, the beauty of the islands there is far greater in person than any picture or video. I could not get enough of the amazing crystal-clear blue ocean and the sun. Coming from Humboldt county where the waves are ginormous and the water is a constant 40 degrees, this was a definite upgrade. I could see the cruise ships at their ports from the house we were staying at. This experience was so amazing. The five of us girls put together 3 Christian dance routines and were able to perform them a few times to draw in the kids....a way to break the ice and get their attention. We got to walk around and pray over the area and pray for people here and there. Nothing too outrageous happened and I was a little bummed about it. The more amazing stuff started happening after Brooke and I left. Oh and no, I didn't get to see a dolphin like I was hoping to......sad day!
Anyway, all that to say that it was an amazing experience and I hope to visit there again someday. So now on to May. We all graduated and recieved a certificate. But it was of course, bittersweet because then most everyone went home but I. I was able to stay with the Kooys at their house (who are amazing and I love them so much!!!) for the summer and was able to work at the movie theater. My summer wasn't anything too extravagant considering it has been the coldest summer they've had in a while here in Eureka. But on nice days, I would drive out to the beach and take in the wonderful ocean. Man, I'm going to miss that ocean.
So now we are caught up to the present. My last day at work was 2 days ago and I cried of course. I'm finding it really difficult to depart from this area while this whole summer I was anxious to go.....funny how that happens sometimes. I fell in love with all the amazing people here. I hate good-byes.....
So you're probably wondering what I'm up to, right? Well, I have applied and been accepted to go to First Year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry in Redding, California (about 3 hours from here). This was the school I tried to go to in the first place but am sooo grateful I got to attend Bethel School of Supernatural Discipleship first.....the smaller atmosphere helped to grow in so many ways. So I was excited all summer and wanted to hurry up and get over there but now that the time is close (first day is the 14th), I'm honestly scared. Here's the situation: It sounds like me and a few friends have an apartment but it's not available for the first week of school so we all have to stay at different places (meaning I'll have to keep my car completely packed for a long time and live out of a suitcase). Then, the whole time I was working this summer was to pay off BSSD and then save up for BSSM. However I made the mistake of going to a cheap mechanic who ended up costing me $1,000 to replace my front cvg joints, brakes, pretty much everything. So the money I could save up ended up going to mechanics, schools, etc. And now I'm left with enough money for gas to get to BSSM and for the deposit on the apartment for the first month. Now, I was working a full 30 hours per week so I wasn't sitting on my butt all summer. It just so happens that money sometimes has to go to priorities first. LAME. I do plan on applying for jobs as soon as we get moved in and settled in our new apartment in Redding. So that will probably take care of rent.
Now the final thing that's freaking me out (and I shouldn't let it freak me out) is the tuition. I have to have $1,800 on the first day of school (the 14th) and I have nothing. I am holding to the promise that God will provide and that He is Jehovah Jirah (The God who Provides) because He has provided for me before throughout my life. He is the ultimate miracle-worker and I know I can trust Him with something as small as my financial circumstances.....that doesn't mean I'm not afraid. There's always going to be fear when stepping in to a new area. A fear of falling or getting lost or hurt. But normally, take a step of faith can be a little scary sometimes......I'm speaking for myself (it happens everytime I'm going to move or do something new). And then the waves of questioning appear causing you to ask if this is the right thing to do or if this is where I'm meant to be. But then, what if there's something better? I don't know about you guys but I always go through this when "moving on."
Either way, I trust God. He'll give me direction when I can't see the path. If all else fails with BSSM, He promises me He always has something better (and only the best in mind). So do keep praying for me if you already have been. I thank you all for being my friends and for supporting me. You all are amazing and I love you all dearly. And I will try to give you an update on what happens concerning this fall! God Bless!
-Jess-
It has been way too long since I've posted a blog. I realize this and I'm sorry.
To give a quick update since my Bahamas trip:
I had the most amazing opportunity to jump in with my roommates family and travel with them to Exuma and Nasau Bahamas for a missions trip. I know this family well because I've stayed with them for Thanksgiving and have visited them a few times throughout this year: AN AMAZING FAMILY AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! But anyway, Brooke and I got to spend 2 weeks out of the 3 weeks they were there helping them minister to the Bahamians. It was my first time I've been out of the country and the first time to use my passport. I must admit, the beauty of the islands there is far greater in person than any picture or video. I could not get enough of the amazing crystal-clear blue ocean and the sun. Coming from Humboldt county where the waves are ginormous and the water is a constant 40 degrees, this was a definite upgrade. I could see the cruise ships at their ports from the house we were staying at. This experience was so amazing. The five of us girls put together 3 Christian dance routines and were able to perform them a few times to draw in the kids....a way to break the ice and get their attention. We got to walk around and pray over the area and pray for people here and there. Nothing too outrageous happened and I was a little bummed about it. The more amazing stuff started happening after Brooke and I left. Oh and no, I didn't get to see a dolphin like I was hoping to......sad day!
Anyway, all that to say that it was an amazing experience and I hope to visit there again someday. So now on to May. We all graduated and recieved a certificate. But it was of course, bittersweet because then most everyone went home but I. I was able to stay with the Kooys at their house (who are amazing and I love them so much!!!) for the summer and was able to work at the movie theater. My summer wasn't anything too extravagant considering it has been the coldest summer they've had in a while here in Eureka. But on nice days, I would drive out to the beach and take in the wonderful ocean. Man, I'm going to miss that ocean.
So now we are caught up to the present. My last day at work was 2 days ago and I cried of course. I'm finding it really difficult to depart from this area while this whole summer I was anxious to go.....funny how that happens sometimes. I fell in love with all the amazing people here. I hate good-byes.....
So you're probably wondering what I'm up to, right? Well, I have applied and been accepted to go to First Year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry in Redding, California (about 3 hours from here). This was the school I tried to go to in the first place but am sooo grateful I got to attend Bethel School of Supernatural Discipleship first.....the smaller atmosphere helped to grow in so many ways. So I was excited all summer and wanted to hurry up and get over there but now that the time is close (first day is the 14th), I'm honestly scared. Here's the situation: It sounds like me and a few friends have an apartment but it's not available for the first week of school so we all have to stay at different places (meaning I'll have to keep my car completely packed for a long time and live out of a suitcase). Then, the whole time I was working this summer was to pay off BSSD and then save up for BSSM. However I made the mistake of going to a cheap mechanic who ended up costing me $1,000 to replace my front cvg joints, brakes, pretty much everything. So the money I could save up ended up going to mechanics, schools, etc. And now I'm left with enough money for gas to get to BSSM and for the deposit on the apartment for the first month. Now, I was working a full 30 hours per week so I wasn't sitting on my butt all summer. It just so happens that money sometimes has to go to priorities first. LAME. I do plan on applying for jobs as soon as we get moved in and settled in our new apartment in Redding. So that will probably take care of rent.
Now the final thing that's freaking me out (and I shouldn't let it freak me out) is the tuition. I have to have $1,800 on the first day of school (the 14th) and I have nothing. I am holding to the promise that God will provide and that He is Jehovah Jirah (The God who Provides) because He has provided for me before throughout my life. He is the ultimate miracle-worker and I know I can trust Him with something as small as my financial circumstances.....that doesn't mean I'm not afraid. There's always going to be fear when stepping in to a new area. A fear of falling or getting lost or hurt. But normally, take a step of faith can be a little scary sometimes......I'm speaking for myself (it happens everytime I'm going to move or do something new). And then the waves of questioning appear causing you to ask if this is the right thing to do or if this is where I'm meant to be. But then, what if there's something better? I don't know about you guys but I always go through this when "moving on."
Either way, I trust God. He'll give me direction when I can't see the path. If all else fails with BSSM, He promises me He always has something better (and only the best in mind). So do keep praying for me if you already have been. I thank you all for being my friends and for supporting me. You all are amazing and I love you all dearly. And I will try to give you an update on what happens concerning this fall! God Bless!
-Jess-
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Back from Las Vegas, back to school!
Hey guys. So sorry I haven't blogged in forever! You can imagine that things have been really busy here! So just as the title says, I have experienced Las Vegas. My whole class went for one week at the end of February till March 2. We went down there to do temporary work as servers at a Nascar event. Since we first arrived, our time was mostly consumed by the Nascar event. We had to get up as early as 4:30 some mornings to go to the Las Vegas Motor Speedway to serve food and help out with anything else there. We would arrive early in the mornings and then work for about 12-16 hours!!! It was intense! We had to do that 3 days in a row as well. Luckily, I got to be in a very nice "VIP" building in the infield and be RIGHT where the action was. You remember how I used to LOVE Cars? So I realize God answered some of my dreams by allowing Cars to become life for me....ever since seeing that movie I was dying to roadtrip to California and see a Nascar event. I drove to California by myself on an amazing adventure when I came to BSSD and then got to experience Nascar first hand! God is so good! So even though I was completely exhausted there, I was totally stocked that on my breaks I got to go watch the event! I was RIGHT above the pit crews and got some cool footage and photos on my camera! I also had Tony Stewart and Danika Patrick do an interview in the room I was serving. On the last day, we had a bunch of people come through the food lines and I was attending to "cleaning" them when Carrot Top came up. Because I was standing there, he said "hi" and "how's it going?" I replied in the normal fashion and squealed on the inside! It was so cool! I would love to experience Nascar as a commoner and not as a worker later on in life because it was exciting (on tv the cars look like they are going so slow but when you see it in person, they are zooming by so fast like! It's incredible!). On the last day that we were there, we got to experience the Las Vegas strip for 6 hours! My goal was to go on the Stratosphere but we parked on the other end of the strip and there was so much to see that we didn't have time to experience it, New York New York, or Fremont street. We couldn't gamble either and I was hoping to try at least one quarter slot machine just for the sake of trying it and saying "I gambled" lol. It was so beautiful though. We got to see the show in front of the Mirage Hotel and in front of the Belagio. We didn't get to see the pirate show at Treasure Island because they were having technical difficulties which was a bummer. I felt like I was in New York with all the lights. I can't wait to go back to New York City and Las Vegas some day. I get the feeling I will too with God! Woot! I was really bummed though because in the Mirage they had a dolphin habitat and white tiger habitat so me being me, I ran to that place to find out it was closed! I was so close to seeing my first dolphin but alas, I couldn't. God will someday show me my favorite animal!!! But besides all of that, everyone was pretty cranky on the way back with the lack of sleep....ya, not pretty. But Jesus still loves us even in our cranky moments. All I can say is kudos to all you people who work in the catering business for a living! It is hard stuff and I could NEVER do it for a whole lifetime. Oh and the money that we worked for is going to go to a small missions trip to the Seattle/Portland at the end of April.
Speaking of finances, I am still in need of a HUGE financial miracle. I hope to go to Nicaragua at the beginning of April but I have to pay off my school before I can go. The unfortunate thing is, I still need to pay $3,900 on my school and then $700 (half of the trip's fund) by Tuesday to get a plane ticket (the whole trip is $1400). So if you would like to donate to the cause, let me know! I assure you that I'm working my butt off at the theater to try to get the funds it but I can only go so far.....so God has to do the rest (which He will because He's Jehovah Jirah-the God that provides). AMEN!!!
Another cool thing is that I'm going to be attending a "mystical" school by John Crowder in mid April. I'm super pumped because I will get activated in the spiritual realm (my senses will get opened up and I will figure out my calling, etc.). You know that crazy stuff that the Holy Spirit does sometimes in meetings? Well, ya, He's going to do that there and more! If you know me, I'm all about the supernatural and the spiritual realms and want so badly to be in that (because I am a spiritual and supernatural being after all-God says so!). If you'd like more information on the schooling, go to thenewmystics.com I'm super excited!
So my plan for next year at this moment would be to graduate BSSD, stay here in Fortuna for the summer to work like crazy at the theater, and then move to Redding to attend BSSM for a year, God willing of course! I've definitely acquired a deep, deep hunger for more of God that can never be satisfied (hallelujah! It will keep me running after Him!). I'm still unsure of what to do with my life but ever since coming here, God's been giving me these HUGE dreams that only He can bring forth and I can't wait to see how He's going to do it. I still have a desire to act in movies and be a voice for Pixar films but I'm also open to the idea of missionary long-term but not in a specific place (I hope to be able to travel around the world and bring the presence of God whereever I go). Singing is actually starting to appeal to me now (I used to hate the idea but so many people keep speaking that into my life....that I'll be a singer and a songwriter and now I'm ok with it....as long as God is ok with it too!). Well, I could go on and on about my dreams but I'll spare you the details.
So that's pretty much an extended update on what's going on in my life. I would love to hear from you guys! I miss you all very much and will hopefully be able to go back to Minnesota for fourth of July week and visit!!! That's my plan for now at least! And remember, if God is placing it on your heart to donate, DON'T HESITATE! Any help will do at this point! Let me know! Email me or message me on facebook! Alright well, love you guys and God Bless! My prayers are with you all!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
God is shaking things up for Humboldt County!
As most of you know, there was a 6.5 earthquake that hit 22 miles off the northwest coast of California. Funny enough, I went to the Broadway Cinema and was working concession when I was hit with the quake. I promise you that I am alright and it sounds like everyone else is too. It hit the hardest in Ferndale which is a town right on the coast and about 2 cities away from Fortuna. It hit the second hardest in Eureka. I was getting a large popcorn for a gentleman when my feet felt like they were slowly moving side to side. At first, I thought it was all in my head (I have some motion problems with my head since I came here and in Colorado that made me feel like I was moving in my head when I wasn't) until the first slam hit seconds later. I had enough time to set down the large popcorn that was full (and ironically, it didn't spill or tip throughout the whole event) and prepared myself. I remember hearing some loud banging near me (which was the kettle of the popcorn machine slamming) and then loud rumblings. For the first impact, my head was a little delayed on figuring out what was going on. I felt out of it and in a dream (very hazy) until I heard myself scream (funny, I was the only one that did, it startled me!) and it snapped me out of it and my head screamed "IT'S AN EARTHQUAKE!" After that, we were rocked twice more with the slamming sensation. My hearing came back after my scream and I heard a guy yell "RUN" which I then proceeded to run to the door. It's funny because as I'm typing this story, I'm laughing. I find it a funny story to tell of my reaction to the whole thing (nothing fell or was destroyed in the earthquake for the theater). After that I stood outside, holding the door, and trying to direct the massive amount of people out of the theater. I still could feel the ground doing the slow rocking sensation (it was the weirdest feeling). After everyone left, we had no power, so we got the rest of the day off! Oh and as soon as I stepped outside, I got to see a BEAUTIFUL sunset! I for one, totally feel that the earthquake was something spiritual....it had some serious significance for what God is about to do in this area! Breakthrough is coming, even the Earth felt it so it had to shutter!
Just 4 days before this earthquake, my class went with Beni Johnson to Ferndale and stood in the cemetery at the top of the city and screamed 'WAKEY WAKEY.' If you don't understand this, I suggest you purchase Beni Johnson's cd "Wakey Wakey" (I also have one if you'd like to borrow it and know what I mean). I won't go into detail about that, that will be your homework to find out what I mean by that! lol!
So besides all this earthquake stuff, life goes on. I actually had my laptop crash a few days ago in class (luckily I was able to get all my files transfered to my roommate's external hard drive!). I'm currently sick right now with a headcold (partly from overworking and stressing about work, partly school chaos, and partly the weather). It's been raining nonstop for about 3-4 days now. Apparently this is normal for California in the winter. They say this was actually supposed to happen months ago! Geez!
I still would like your prayers and support for my school funding. Yes I got a job, but a job will only pay for so much. My car is currently needing new brakes, a fix in the popped tire, new CVG Joint things, and more. So if you'd like to donate money or something, let me know! If not, please be praying! I know God will bless me with the money I need (He promises to be my Provider all the time!) So I guess go with whatever God tells you to do! I still need about $4,200! But God is Good!!
Speaking of God, He has really been opening up the supernatural and spiritual realms to me lately. My heart's desire is for a life lived in the spiritual realm, or in the supernatural atmosphere and through prophetic words over me this year, God had promised just that! He says I will get to see angels soon, go to Heaven whenever I want, have crazy breakthrough in signs and wonders, and much more! I can't wait to see how God's going to pour out on the next Great Awakening in this area!
Ok, well I better go! I need to get some rest! Please let me know if you have any prayer needs! I love you all and miss you all like crazy! God Bless!
*Jess*
Just 4 days before this earthquake, my class went with Beni Johnson to Ferndale and stood in the cemetery at the top of the city and screamed 'WAKEY WAKEY.' If you don't understand this, I suggest you purchase Beni Johnson's cd "Wakey Wakey" (I also have one if you'd like to borrow it and know what I mean). I won't go into detail about that, that will be your homework to find out what I mean by that! lol!
So besides all this earthquake stuff, life goes on. I actually had my laptop crash a few days ago in class (luckily I was able to get all my files transfered to my roommate's external hard drive!). I'm currently sick right now with a headcold (partly from overworking and stressing about work, partly school chaos, and partly the weather). It's been raining nonstop for about 3-4 days now. Apparently this is normal for California in the winter. They say this was actually supposed to happen months ago! Geez!
I still would like your prayers and support for my school funding. Yes I got a job, but a job will only pay for so much. My car is currently needing new brakes, a fix in the popped tire, new CVG Joint things, and more. So if you'd like to donate money or something, let me know! If not, please be praying! I know God will bless me with the money I need (He promises to be my Provider all the time!) So I guess go with whatever God tells you to do! I still need about $4,200! But God is Good!!
Speaking of God, He has really been opening up the supernatural and spiritual realms to me lately. My heart's desire is for a life lived in the spiritual realm, or in the supernatural atmosphere and through prophetic words over me this year, God had promised just that! He says I will get to see angels soon, go to Heaven whenever I want, have crazy breakthrough in signs and wonders, and much more! I can't wait to see how God's going to pour out on the next Great Awakening in this area!
Ok, well I better go! I need to get some rest! Please let me know if you have any prayer needs! I love you all and miss you all like crazy! God Bless!
*Jess*
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